Monday morning ... I was in a bad mood because I had to get up early again after two days vacation,My mom was in the kitchen preparing break fast for me.
I had to drive bike to drop vaidehi[my niece] to her school before going to office.No, I didn't drive bike to drop her to school very often but she missed the bus because she couldn't find color-box in time.Ten minutes to go before school began and we obviously were not the only late ones. We arrived at school twenty minutes later and vaidehi jumped from the bike and ran into the school building without saying bye.
I took a deep breath and started the way back home. Damn traffic made me a bit angry but there was nothing I could do, so I just turned on the my mobile's music player to listen to some uplifting music. When I looked up again, everything around me was strangely motionless. Many cars and bikes all around mine and not a single of them was moving. People were sitting in their seats with eyes wide open and silent ... they stared at me for whatever reason. My mood was still horrible, so I decided to get out of my bike and walk back home, it was just about one mile and I didn't care what would happen to my bike if I would leave it there, in the middle of that crossroad.
The light was very ... hmmm ... what was it? ... the sun was shining when I left the house earlier but now it was dark but not like at night ... then I remembered when I saw this before ... it was like the twilight that comes with an eclipse. I looked up but couldn't see the sun nor anything else but this strange silvery gray and blue sky. No need to spend much time thinking about that, I just wanted to go home to ready for going to office and have a coffee and breakfast.
The front door was wide open when I reached our house. When I was inside I suddenly felt very tired. Just a short rest ... on the sofa ... stretching my body for a few minutes and closing my eyes ... oh, what pleasure!
I must have slept for 15 minutes and when I woke up I saw some people in our living room.Mom was there,My sister,my brother,some relatives and some neighbors, all very silent and all dressed in dark clothes. Immediately I thought that something must have happened and jumped up.
"What's up here? Did anything happen? Why did nobody wake me up?" I asked, angry once more ... angry and worried. The silence remained, I got no answer ... even worse nobody seemed to notice me. I ran to the room of my younger brother but he sat on bed, also silent, pale face and tears running down his cheeks. I stepped in and sat down next to him.He didn't looked up.
"Hey bro, everything okay?" my voice didn't seem to reach their ears,He didn't answer. It's painful for a me to see my brother grieving like they did but I decided to leave them alone and went back hall to ask mom what happened. mom sat on the sofa I slept on before and She was desperately crying.
"Why?" She asked nobody in particular. "Why did this happen? I need him.I can't live without him.He can't be "DEAD",He just CAN'T BE DEAD!" She screamed the last words and everybody in the room looked down uncomfortably.
"Who died? Tell me, please ... what happened?" I wanted an answer but still not a single person took notice of me. My Aunty entered the room and took place next to my mom. "I am missing words here but I will always be there for you when you want to talk about SURAJ death. I am really sorry for your loss, He was way too young to die."
I stumbled backwards ... SURAJ ... that was me ... but I wasn't dead, I was here, here in my own home with my family ... I WAS THERE!!! I wanted to shake my mom to make her notice me but my hands couldn't touch her, not her and nobody else. And the mirror didn't show me ... I was gone but there.
Tringgggggggg Tringggggggg Tringggggg Tringggggg Tringggggg..........................
Suddenly alarm rang...........
I was slowly waking up......
At that same moment, Mom shouted at me ...... Hey Suraj! Wake up immediately.Its already 7:45 in the morning.Otherwise you will be late for the office.
Just a conversation :
Wife: The most terrible nightmare I ever had. It's the most horrible dream I ever had.
Husband: It's OK, it's OK now. Really.
Wife: I dreamed that I killed you. But I didn't just kill you. I cut you up in little pieces. Oh my God. I must be losing my mind.
[ Before one month.....i saw this dream ....obviously it was most horrible dream I ever had ....but it gave me a subject to write another blog after nearly 7 months ....Very Special thanks to dream. :)]
